will it really be ok?

i don't know why i'm struggling so much now. what did i change in my life that allowed for these feelings to resurface? i am drowning... i'm losing my desire to keep fighting. the surface is getting harder to see; soon i'll be lost permanently. what is the point of fighting? how can i find the strength to swim? or where is it to be found? the pressure is building up, which is adding difficultly. what now? what can i change? who can i ask for help? who can pull me out? is there anyone out there? does anyone care? so many questions.... where are the answers?

love it.

don't look down.

hello. i'm surviving finals week and as of right now i have one more final. yesss. one more and then italy! i honestly can't wait. the only thing that's standing in my way is packing. packing is not fun.

so much has been on my mind... things i've struggled with for years and things i just can't seem to overcome. but i don't want to be that person anymore. i can change my way of thinking and get over this bump that i'm constantly stuck out. i can become the person i want to become. this thing i struggle with is quite simple but i just can't do it. i honestly feel so trapped. i've tried many things but nothing seems to work. what it comes down to is ME. other outside things will not help my problem. i am the only one who can fix this. i need to stop it before it becomes worst. i need to find the strength from within. find the power.
i am going to stop this. really. just watch me.

moving on and out.

get her done.

i have a presentation tomorrow that i'm really nervous about. but by 9 it will be all over and hello carefree week. just kidding, i wish it was carefree but it's not. oh well. i just want it to be over :S i'm hanging in there.

;)

we are so fortunate to live in such a beautiful world. i don't think we realize just how lucky we are. every night there's a beautiful sunset; each morning a gorgeous sunrise. the sky in general is so pretty, and it's there for us to enjoy.

wow.

i love it.

i do a horrible job trying to capture the skies beauty, especially since the photos taken are from my camera phone. but they are still pretty :)

bluebirds

things i know:

• life is funny


• life is ridiculous


• life is hard


• Jesus Christ is always there for me


• i have the greatest family ever


• bekah is best twin/sister and i love her to death


• i have to get over myself and help other peope


• i want a huge garden when i'm older


• drawing faces is hard and i'm horrible at it


• the semester ends in 3 weeks


• i'm not ready for the semeser to end


• i'll be in italy in a month


• it's friday!!!

dang.

i cannot believe it's April. where is my year going??