will it really be ok?

i don't know why i'm struggling so much now. what did i change in my life that allowed for these feelings to resurface? i am drowning... i'm losing my desire to keep fighting. the surface is getting harder to see; soon i'll be lost permanently. what is the point of fighting? how can i find the strength to swim? or where is it to be found? the pressure is building up, which is adding difficultly. what now? what can i change? who can i ask for help? who can pull me out? is there anyone out there? does anyone care? so many questions.... where are the answers?