life in the summer.

so i've been home for almost a month and it's been an interesting stay. i've been trying to stay productive because i don't have a job and i don't like wasting time. my parents have been putting beks and me to work with projects around the house, which i don't mind half the time. i've been trying to exercise and eat healthy (which has been a challenge for some reason.) the hardest thing to deal with is living far away from things when i don't have a car. i feel trapped at my house, and it doesn't help that gas prices are so high. (what's up with that? it adds to the situation is not a good way.) at times like these i just want to live by myself in a city where i can take the train or a bike to my destinations. also, since i've been home, i've been trying to become the person i want to be. the person i really, really, really, want to be. at times it feels like i can't change but i know i can. i can be whoever i want to be. (but being myself, too, of course ;)) it's so difficult overcoming personal habits; it takes so much focus and constant attention. but i feel like if i can at least get a little bit better at some things, i'll have so much control in my life; it will help with so many areas in my life. kind of like the dominion effect i suppose. so that's what i've been working on. not too exciting. i just need to stay positive and remember i can do anything with hard work.